Never too far away...

"When you love someone so deeply,they become your life.Now I understand to hold you I must open up my hands an watch you rise"

It was an overwhelming crucify nightmare that i wasn't expecting.A nightmare which dampens my mood and i felt the punch which pierced through my heart.I thought it wasn't going to impact me that much but it actually did.Maybe due to my past reasons.Like a motto in life, "A nightmare that never ends but always continues in a cycle." I was all torn up and was emotionally disturbed.Imagining the worst overcomes and expecting unexpected news.Still in a horrified state but trying all ways to keep calm and accepting the reality.In a snap,my life became an outrageous unmagical fairytale.Perhaps at that shocking moment.Venting all my feelings,cooped up in my room,lying helplessly on my bed,not having my daily diets,feeling bitter and listening to Mariah Carey songs which made me broke down listening to every single of it.Full of confusion but tried so hard to overcome it.At the end of it,these lines saying "Everything happens for a reason" is always reminding me that all humans are not perfect.And people do make mistakes and that of course doesn't exclude me.My love for him never change a single bit despite whatever that had happened.To give him the other chance and forgiving him was a challenge but i believe he deserves another chance.Another chance to prove me and people wrong.Another chance to mend his ways and to step up in our relationship.This is a good lesson learnt for me and him.

"Abdul Hakim Abdul Razak, I,Nur Syarafina Md Shahreen forgave you wholeheartedly and will never bear any grudges and i hope you will hold on to the pact made."And i miss you...So very much.